I want to pause those moments while nursing where he breaths deeply in and out savoring every swallow. When his rythym is perfect and those little sleepy eyes look up at me as if to say "this is good Mommy, real good!".
I want to pause and savor the times we spend as a family on our living room floor. Rolling around, hugging, cuddling and just loving our baby boo.
Pause that oh so special goodbye kiss every morning. I've told him before when i'm to sleepy to realize or he forgets to kiss me goodbye I wake up almost frantic...like i've missed something.
I want to pause and save each and every smile...so far he rarely let's us catch them with the camera but when he smiles it melts my heart. Sometimes when you least expect it, when he's been fussing for 3 min. to pick him up or change his diaper he looks right in my eyes and in that moment stops everything to smile!!
Who knew how special being a Mommy could be! I was thinking today how some people say they were born to be a mother. I see where they are coming from but to be honest I never felt that way until he popped out that magical February day...right then I knew I couldn't give this experience up for anything and now I believe I too was born to be a Mommy!
These pictures are from my birthday...i've changed my hair completely since then so yeah a little old but I asked my mother in law to send em over cause I love them...they capture my happy little family :)
Those glasses have got to GOOOO!!! I really need to go get contacts...ugh so much to do so little time...good Mommys make time right!!
Unfortunately being a great Mommy doesn't make me the best house keeper. I dunno I feel like I do a pretty good job with things but maybe it's not good enough. I feel sometimes Doug gets frustrated that I am here all day long and everything isn't picture perfect. I do my best and honestly, the other Mommys can back me up here, it's not that easy to acheive perfection when you have a little pumpkin craving your constant attention. Should I just let him lay there while I do other things? Is it wrong to feel bad that he spends more than 30 min. in his swing? For some reason I feel like i'm not properly stimulating him if I leave him idle in the swing or laying in his floor gym...I even go so far as wondering if I let him sleep to much! I don't try to make him fall asleep I literally wait until his little eye lids are red and can't hardly stay open but maybe that's because i'm not playing with him enough...oh and then I think i'm not cleaning enough! Ahh ok i'm doing it again...doing what I did the whole pregnancy...worrying!!!
Forget all that huh...I think i'm doing a pretty good job! For now that is my job and will always be the most important job!!
Sounds like you are doing a great job! Don't feel bad about not getting the house perfectly clean, your little one is only little for so long. You will learn to balance with time! It also gives Doug a chance to do something nice for you (like the dishes!). i think its great that you let trykk hang out by himself sometimes, babies need to learn to play by themselves. I wouldn't leave him alone super long, but if he is happy, let him play!
ReplyDeleteDon't get too worried, the fact that you are worried about it makes me think you are doing a great job. Have fun!
Awww! You are such a sweet mommy! I wish I could pause life sometimes too-- these little loves grow up WAY too fast!
ReplyDeleteseriously lady, I sometimes look at our place and wonder how the heck I can let it get this way, but I clean it and two seconds later it looks awful again. Wait till that little bugger finds out how fun it is to pull everything off the shelves ;)
ReplyDeleteyou're doing great! Seriously, you can't get time back so enjoy him and let the house get a little messy ;)