You can't pause life

Like right now I wish I could pause my laundry to throw in this one dirty sock I just found under a pillow..always happens to me. I wish to pause life more for selfish reasons lately.
I want to pause those moments while nursing where he breaths deeply in and out savoring every swallow. When his rythym is perfect and those little sleepy eyes look up at me as if to say "this is good Mommy, real good!".
I want to pause and savor the times we spend as a family on our living room floor. Rolling around, hugging, cuddling and just loving our baby boo.
Pause that oh so special goodbye kiss every morning. I've told him before when i'm to sleepy to realize or he forgets to kiss me goodbye I wake up almost frantic...like i've missed something.
I want to pause and save each and every smile...so far he rarely let's us catch them with the camera but when he smiles it melts my heart. Sometimes when you least expect it, when he's been fussing for 3 min. to pick him up or change his diaper he looks right in my eyes and in that moment stops everything to smile!!

Who knew how special being a Mommy could be! I was thinking today how some people say they were born to be a mother. I see where they are coming from but to be honest I never felt that way until he popped out that magical February day...right then I knew I couldn't give this experience up for anything and now I believe I too was born to be a Mommy!


These pictures are from my birthday...i've changed my hair completely since then so yeah a little old but I asked my mother in law to send em over cause I love them...they capture my happy little family :)






Those glasses have got to GOOOO!!! I really need to go get contacts...ugh so much to do so little time...good Mommys make time right!!

Unfortunately being a great Mommy doesn't make me the best house keeper. I dunno I feel like I do a pretty good job with things but maybe it's not good enough. I feel sometimes Doug gets frustrated that I am here all day long and everything isn't picture perfect. I do my best and honestly, the other Mommys can back me up here, it's not that easy to acheive perfection when you have a little pumpkin craving your constant attention. Should I just let him lay there while I do other things? Is it wrong to feel bad that he spends more than 30 min. in his swing? For some reason I feel like i'm not properly stimulating him if I leave him idle in the swing or laying in his floor gym...I even go so far as wondering if I let him sleep to much! I don't try to make him fall asleep I literally wait until his little eye lids are red and can't hardly stay open but maybe that's because i'm not playing with him enough...oh and then I think i'm not cleaning enough! Ahh ok i'm doing it again...doing what I did the whole pregnancy...worrying!!!

Forget all that huh...I think i'm doing a pretty good job! For now that is my job and will always be the most important job!!

I find myself entranced...

Lately I find myself entranced by pictures...the beauty of capturing a moment in time with everlasting photos. I hate my camera (it's all I have for now) but I can't help taking a bagillion pictures a day. Dougs family laugh at me because I take pictures of seemingly off the wall strange things. Well to them it may seem strange but lately I can't help but fall in love with pictures of his neices dirty skates, broken egg shells, my handsome mans silly stripped socks! To me all of those things are what makes up this crazy world we live in. For that I am greatful!

Which reminds me...last night Doug took me out for a little one on one Mommy Daddy time :). We went out to the Pima County Fair where Jake Owen was playing! May sound silly but neither one of us realized that he's the artist who plays our song!! Probably the 2nd time Doug and I really spent solid time together he's been singing me this song. I couldn't have asked for a better moment...like Jake Owen was singin it just for us!! "but baby don't think I can't loooovvveee you!!" It's been my ring back tone for almost a year now haha!



Today was a good day. One of those lounge around and veg days. I am proud to say I make dinner for my family pretty much every evening!! and today...well today I made an elaborate breakfast, lunch AND dinner! Oh AND that includes a midday sweet indulgence as well :). After some napping (or reading for me) we took a couple laps around our super amazing neighborhood park followed by Dougs custom car show, dinner and bathtime for Trykk. Oh the baby even went on an african safari before bed!! Yep he's quite the globetrotter!!







Ahh life is good...just breathing it all in one day at a time :)

Movin' and a Groovin'

So it's been a little while but i've got suuccchhh a good reason! WE MOVED! That's right we finally found a house and got all moved in about two weekends ago. Then waited for a week to get TV, etc. THEN a wedding last weeked so what more can I say, busy bees!! Anywhodle moving wasn't to bad. Doug and I had the realization that we both had much more than we thought when it came to belongings! Holy shish moving that down stairs at the apartment was like marching in a straight line through a cactus ridden desert with no water! We moved an entire closet (no joke) full of diapers, back and forth, back and forth! We spent the first night movin crap and then my love bug took off the whole weekend to help me put all the junk where it needed to go. We actually had a lot of fun organizing our first home together!!! I love how much fun we have together...

Starting the 2nd night in our new home Mr. Trykk decided it was time to sleep the whole night through!! Yippee! His new sleep schedule goes from 10 pm to 6 am. So flippin awesome if you ask me...getting him on a little routine is really helping.

In other news I can actually see a difference in my body! Praise the Lord! I was getting so frustrated with myself and I think after seeing everyones responses to my last post I felt a little more at ease. Once I stopped worrying I started to notice a difference. Of course I wouldn't ever take back having my precious son for a flat stomach, no way Jose! Thanks everyone for you encouraging words...that helps me not feel so alone in the fight againt fat haha just kidding!!!

My mom went back to Indonesia a few weeks ago :( I hope she can see this little update because for some reason my e-mails won't send to her! BLAH! Miss her already...


Daddy and his baby.


His hairline is EXACTLY like his dads...cracks me up!


Doug was thinkin our 10 week old can stand on his own already hehe.


Don't mind the gross cleavage...new blonde hair though!!

Baby weight...On and Off!

Mr. Trykk is 2 months old today! He is thriving...eating like a horse and trying his best to talk! Today at the breastfeeding support group he weighed in at 10 lbs. 5.5 oz. Ha what a little porker. Well normal but I say porker because that's a 13 oz. increase from last wednesday. Almost a whole pound in a week! Good boy!

Unfortunately his mother isn't making any progress on her baby weight LOSS! I try my old pants on about one a week and still they aren't anywhere near fitting...UGH! To be honest I haven't really altered my eating which is definitly the issue. I eat TERRIBLE! It seems like I am always being faced with sweet stuff and I can't say no. That's bad. So i've started walking, riding bikes and eating better. I really hope that starts to make a difference because I can't imagine buying all new clothes. Please tell me i'm not the only one who has struggled with baby weight! I swear every where I look girls are just right back to their old sizes! :( I just keep telling myself I can do this! Progress will be made!

Quick Easter post

Easter was so much fun...The baby and I visited with my Gran and Papa in San Manuel for the first half and then Dougs parents in Tucson for Sunday. My sister was here with her kids and we had so much fun doing bunny stuff. More pictures of that later...Easter Sunday with Dougs family was a blast! We tried out his neices new roller skates, watched the Chipmunk movie, rode scooters, and went for a ride on the bikes. It was a super busy day and we enjoyed every second!! Here's a few pictures of our day...

Everyday gets better

Sometimes I wonder if I ever imagined motherhood being this sweet. My son amazes me a little more everyday. I've been telling everyone how I swear he laughs in his sleep. It's no exageration that his whole body shakes with laughter as he enjoys sweet dreams. I try to imagine what beautiful scene he must be watching behind sleepy eyes.

This morning we awoke to little grunts and toot toot toot. I will admit whatever i'm eating must be making my son very gassy! Daddy took Trykk in his arms and from there it was magic. As the days progress our little is connecting more and more. He looked in Daddys eyes and cooed. Opening his mouth with such excitement! Staring up trying so hard to spatter off his own baby language in response. They have such a connection already...what more could I ask for!

I have such dreams for our future together but for today this is enough...

Family Pictures...

For Christmas we had gifted my mother in law with a family picture session. We decided to have maternity pictures done for ourselves as well. I got the copies back and we could not be happier! They turned out soo amazing! Here are some of my ultimate favorites...pretty close to all of them ha!! Thanks Becca!

Is this not soo awesome! On our journey through life...

Wish I had my sunglasses...we're hot huh!

I think he looks soo sexy right here...look at my huge belly!

I look like I have such attitude...haha!

I can't wait till he can wear these!

Our neices Jordan, Paige and Isabella.

Doug with his Grandparents, Sister Ruby and Brother Neil. What an awesome shot!

How cute huh!

Dougs (well our)wonderful family.

I love this one...I love him!

My absolute favorite! The boys look sooo handsome in from of Dougs truck!

More on my vacation later...>