Precious Pooper

Sometimes you wonder how you can feel so out of control. Having a baby has taken my anxiety to another level! I love him so much and I wouldn't change anything for a second but it's very hard for me to understand I have to just let go and accept things as they come. Luckily with everyones help and advice he is feeding much better!
At our doctors appointment on Monday he actually hadn't gained any weight at all so that was cause for alarm. I went to the lactation consultant right away because of course I was worried I wasn't doing the right thing. Turns out the little guy is so small he seems to be burning so many calories just from the exertion to eat. So I started pumping and I really feel like he's getting more. We'll see if there's any progress on Monday.
I couldn't help but laugh because they have the funniest questions when you see a lactation nurse. She wanted to know everything about his poop, color, consistency, etc. She asked about my nipple care as well as like 15 different things that could be abnormal with them. That was fun because most of the time I was like "uh...i'm unsure?"...she usually had to tell me oh yes honey you would know if that was an issue. Oh and i'm starting to feel bad for poor Doug, almost every time I see someone in the hospital setting they ask me if I am in an abusive relationship. I know that's just standard procedure but he was starting to get worried I might be saying yes because they asked so much! Aww...love hims so much!
I cannot thank everyone enough for their words of advice! I'm sure I will need more so please don't hesitate to give me all the tips you can muster! He is such a gift and of course I am just fighting to be a awesome Mommy!