Precious Pooper

Sometimes you wonder how you can feel so out of control. Having a baby has taken my anxiety to another level! I love him so much and I wouldn't change anything for a second but it's very hard for me to understand I have to just let go and accept things as they come. Luckily with everyones help and advice he is feeding much better!
At our doctors appointment on Monday he actually hadn't gained any weight at all so that was cause for alarm. I went to the lactation consultant right away because of course I was worried I wasn't doing the right thing. Turns out the little guy is so small he seems to be burning so many calories just from the exertion to eat. So I started pumping and I really feel like he's getting more. We'll see if there's any progress on Monday.
I couldn't help but laugh because they have the funniest questions when you see a lactation nurse. She wanted to know everything about his poop, color, consistency, etc. She asked about my nipple care as well as like 15 different things that could be abnormal with them. That was fun because most of the time I was like "uh...i'm unsure?"...she usually had to tell me oh yes honey you would know if that was an issue. Oh and i'm starting to feel bad for poor Doug, almost every time I see someone in the hospital setting they ask me if I am in an abusive relationship. I know that's just standard procedure but he was starting to get worried I might be saying yes because they asked so much! Aww...love hims so much!
I cannot thank everyone enough for their words of advice! I'm sure I will need more so please don't hesitate to give me all the tips you can muster! He is such a gift and of course I am just fighting to be a awesome Mommy!

Fussy Mr. Muffin!

Yes I have dubbed my adorable son Muffin! Haha everyone thinks i'm nuts but I have the funniest pet names for people and so far my favorite one for Trykkster is Muffin :). Ha I love him! Not the most amazing picture but I just think he is so cute all propped up in his boppy pillow. He really likes to sit up and look around...aww my little Muffin!!

Trykk is 11 days old now and I can tell he is getting bigger. He is finally starting to fill in his newborn clothes! When he was born at 6 pounds 11 ounces I thought wow what a small baby! Then when we left the hospital he had dropped to 6 pounds 4 ounces so of course it was noticeable on such a tiny thing. At his first doctors appointment he had climbed a little to 6 pounds 6 ounces so it felt good to see we were on the up and up! I'm curious what his weight will be at our appointment tomorrow.

Last week he had his circumcisn and that was the most horrible experience I have ever been through! To any future mom: Do NOT watch or even go in the room where they snip your little man! I walked in that door and completly lost it! I could not get a hold of myself and they hadn't even done anything yet! Boy oh boy! As a new Mommy I had no idea that would be so hard...I am dreading his shots :(. Word to the wise get it done in the hospital! Trykk has been soo fussy since his procedure. He just doesn't seem like his happy little self since then and I am about to drive myself crazy with the breastfeeding process. I refuse to give up because it is so important to me to give him the benefits of breast milk. It is certainly not easy though...

Our Baby Story

I left off with the cervadil being ordered to get my cervix softened and that night was complete torture! Those beds are so uncomfortable and seriously every time I would get into a comfortable position they couldn't hear the babys heartbeat so of course I had to move again! I probably slept like 2 hours! Annoying! Well finally 5 am rolled around and they said hey here we go it's time for the the pitosin! I was super excited to hear those words...Well as they started watching they couldn't administer the pitosin right away because I actually started contracting on my own soo I actually went into labor all on my own...that baby was READY! So at 5 am I was about 2 centimeters...after an hour of intense contractions I had progressed to 4 centimeters! That's a pretty quick little jump if you ask me. I gave up at that point and said give me the drugs! They came in and gave me the epidural...with Doug looking in my eyes and squeezing my hands I made it through that experience. Man what a relief! As soon as that hit me I was able to sleep for about and hour and a half. The nurses were soo amazing the whole time I really don't think I could have had a better experience! I finally woke up at about 8:30 or 9 and they were ready to check me again. As soon as she put her hand down there she was like "Oh wow...ok"...so um yeah ok what's that mean. During my little hour and a half nap I had moved to 8 centimeters! Holy cow it was really happening!!!! Doug and I looked at each other like this is it! I cried and I know he wanted to...our baby was really on it's way! The nurse immediately called my doctor and said if I kept going the way I was this baby would be ready in no time so get there! Ha well while she may be an awesome doctor she is never very prompt so the next two hours or so we just waited. The nurse checked me again and never really told me where I was I think mainly because they didn't want me to panic or push because if I did the nurse would need to catch my little man! As soon as the doctor got there I was ready but not really...I was sooo scared! We have video of the whole thing and you should see my face. I look totally petrified. Doug had to keep telling me "You can do it babe!!" So here goes nothin she told me to push and I did...With one push I had half of his head out and of course they wanted me to touch it..yeah uh no guys really i'll pass haha! Sad but I just couldn't do it! Doug didn't want to either ha. So with one more contraction and another 3 pushes or so he was out! Totally in shock...I could not believe how incredibly perfect he came out...what an experience! I am changed forever!

This is to long and I love everyone for all their wonderful comments about the baby! Here are 3 more pictures Becca took for us...we are so blessed :)

Announcing Baby Trykk!

Trykk Mason Bartel

02/10/2010 11:44 am

6 pounds 11 ounces

19 1/2 inches

Killin time waitin for baby!

Soooo i'm sittin in the hospital now! This morning was our scheduled weekly appointment and the doctor was a little concerned because I mentioned that Monday I really hadn't felt much movement from my usually very active little boy. She was in a rush because another patient was ready to push at the hospital so she told me I should head over to another office for monitoring. I believe the test was called an LST. They set me up on a baby fetal monitor and told me to push a button every time I felt the baby move. Well in the first 20 min. he only moved maybe two times so in order to kick that into gear they gave me some apple juice. After drinking the juice there still wasn't much change so she said she would like to have the doctor check my results. About a minute later she came back in the room and said they weren't thrilled with the babys response so I needed to head to the hospital. Of course I semi panicked! I called Doug who I thought was going to have a heart attack and told him he needed to meet me at the hospital. It was a tense drive over because I didn't have much information about what was really going on.
As soon as I got to the hospital they put me back on the monitoring and there really wasn't any change...he still wasn't moving or responding to any of the little vibrating noise makers they were putting on my belly. They called my doctor and she said ok admit her we'll enduce! Obviously me and Doug were standing in the room like WHAT!!!! Did she just say what I think she said!?! She even went as far as saying "Hey girl looks like you're having your baby today or tomorrow!" Wow...a bit of a shock. Well suddenly that spike in my emotion caused our little man to wake up and move all around squirmin like a worm! So of course they then thought well maybe all is well and maybe you won't have the baby today! OMG!? We were like please don't toy with our emotions this is nutty enough!! Our doctor was then called in so she could check herself and after a 20 minute ultrasound she said yeah he's not responding the way I want him to so let's go ahead and enduce you...Ahhh how nice to have a definite answer...the one we had been waiting for all day! After that I was able to calm waaayyy down but then it hits me...WE'RE HAVING A BABY!
So now here I sit killin some time just waitin on this cervadil to run it's course! They tell me it'll take up to 12 hours so who knows when all will progress but hey i'm down for anything at this point...bring on the pain!

Bulging Baby Monster

Welp there it is! Haha a nice ripe 37.5 weeks along and yes it keeps growing! I really hope this means he is getting closer to coming out but my patience is still intact! Doug and I have been doing so much to prepare lately making the whole situation seem so real! It's actually happening! He will be in that carseat soon, he will be sleeping in those little itty bitty PJ's, all this tiny laundry will be for him to cuddle with...AHHH!
We are very excited that's for sure...I hope it all goes smoothly and I pray it won't go past my due date : )!!!! My doctor says she won't enduce unless there is something wrong or if I go 2 weeks past the due date so i've gotta just hope he isn't stubborn!! Ha I'm loving every moment though...for now ha

Big Belly Getting Bigger

I've been printing pictures for my thank you notes along with pics starting this baby journey and it hit me how big my belly has gotten! This picture to the right was taken at our 20 week appointment and if you compare that to the maternity pictures we just took it's almost shocking how HUGE Amie is. Or I guess how big Mr. Trykk is haha. Makes me laugh because I thought I was soo big around 20 weeks ha yeah right!! Then you don't even realize how much bigger it does get! SHOCKING!
I must admit I'm getting to that point where I feel like I may not be able to take much more of this! I am beyond tired this last week and at the same time going stir crazy. I feel like I should be doing so much right now but theres not much I can do! This weekend coming up will be the first weekend I've had to just sit and relax since before Thanksgiving! I've threatened Doug that if he doesn't get his butt home from work early to spend time with me I will be going on strike from scratching his back for a whole week! Please come out soon little boy...we want to meet you :)